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Growing Up Pissed

The violence continues. Mental illness again had won out with a boy who was pissed

The world was against him, it offered no hope and he felt completely dissed

The anger had started early and eventually turned him into a social outcast

The memories were vivid. The slights and hurt of not fitting in were flooding in from the past

Current leadership constantly emphasizes your hopes and dreams are hindered by those who have it better

The loathing started in elementary school with the taunts and snickers. Yes, he heard them all and the hatred began to fester

Hiding his face in his pillow at night all he saw were the kids laughing at him

He knew one day he’d be the one laughing when the blood is draining from their wounds and their life light begins to dim

Current leadership has allowed violence to be celebrated as a way for social change

What difference is it to kill a baby a day before birth or gun them at nine as reasoning has crossed the line to deranged

Having passed the eighteenth year of mental abuse, both real and imagined, the mandatory purchase of the gun was now logical

The gun had been calling for action since it was purchased. It was time to right all the wrongs even though the hurt was all psychological

It was time to act. The TV coverage would be huge and everyone would remember his act for years to come

Entrance to the school was easy. Everything was unlocked and no one was armed, he smiled as he flicked the safety off with his thumb

The violent society had rewarded another tragedy and all should be horrified as leadership looked and sounded sincere

But leadership will point their fingers and continue to prioritize violence. Property damage and assault is okay, killing babies is approved but killing children is too severe

Social Media’s Crushing My Soul

Leaving the Doc’s sterile office, the exam paper left streaks on my rear
My lethargy and depression seemed symptomatic and I hoped not severe
My daily routine seemed aimless, what were goals were now dismissed
I was sleepwalking through life, working and eating but only to exist
Friendships seemed hollow, pleasure was fleeting as the world seemed a brownish gray
Hopefully the doctor could read something in my blood sample and right my dismay
I couldn’t check my personal page, look at my Twitter account or Instagram
As everyone’s got it better, has more followers, and about me not give a damn
In the past six months I’ve been friended by only four people that I don’t know
I liked something I saw so the friend request arrived to keep all status quo
The buzzing in my mind has grown louder reminding me of my inadequacy
And now I fear the persistent noise can’t be diagnosed clinically
The alcohol, the drugs, prescribed or not had only opened doors to nowhere
My tiny unremarkable life has become an unrelenting nightmare
No one notices, no one cares. The nurse only wanted my copay
So the doc can tell me nothing is wrong and to put my phone away.
But I can’t put it down, my cell has become me, I’m it’s identity
It’s my voice to all the other voices shouting at the globe’s inhumanity
It’s my umbilical cord to others meager triumphs and a channel to their hatred
The short video clips and bits of text all seem extreme, common sense negated
My thoughts begin to tumble, foreign voices and color explosions swirled
This device has become my addiction, an obsession in my private netherworld
Irrational thoughts of fame and glory have become a daily norm
My indifference coupled with lost souls’ recorded conflicts becomes a perfect storm
I’m feeling the need to end it all and find peace from the innate turmoil
Not to be understood,  my resolution makes sense to me and my mentor the phone, stays loyal

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